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Koji
21 September 2010 @ 09:58 am

Banner: [info]rhythmslip 



This account serves as both my writing journal and my blog. Private things are posted here, and they aren't always f-locked, so if you're adding me to keep tabs on what I write, beware of blog spamage on your page sometimes. I won't add anyone I'm not overly familiar with (though I'm tempted to add some of my readers only because they're so awesome and leave me wonderful comments), but if you leave a comment here to give me a reason why I should add you, I'll consider it.
 
 
Koji
02 October 2009 @ 08:14 pm
Laptop issue is (partially) resolved. I hesitate to say this beacuse it still seems hellbent on giving me trouble. Here's to hoping it'll stop freaking out on me. I'm quite paranoid that it will break down any given second though. >>
 
 
Koji
20 September 2009 @ 09:58 pm


When I started Access Denied, I pretty much stopped writing oneshots and drabbles. I think it's because the amount of effort and time I'm putting into Access Denied was a lot more than the shit I did on the other stuff, so I pretty much set aside my thoughts for Access Denied and my personal work.

At the moment, I still haven't thought about the next chapter for Access Denied very much. So I was thinking I'd like to write a drabble or a oneshot for you guys.

Go ahead and request something, or prompt me. It can be fanfiction or original fic, anything, really. Except for certain pairings. -hack- You'd probably know which.

I'll choose one or two that I like and write something. Or try to. No promises, unfortunately.

But I'd like to do a bit of fun writing, so I'd like it if whoever sees this post, all those people on my f-list...you have some opinions, don't you?

 
 
Koji
12 September 2009 @ 07:06 am
This morning, I woke to the sound of rain falling down. For the past three weeks it's been a mindless haze of heat and humidity. I suppose I should've expected it, but I've never really seen it happen, the humidity then rain.

I threw open my curtains and the sky was beautiful. The sunrise had dyed the gray clouds pink, rose, purple, and blue. I ran outside to take some pictures, but they weren't very good. The rain stopped.

Outside my window, something suddenly flashed. I hurried to turn my head to the window and counted to three. Thunder rumbled.

It's my first real thunderstorm. xD Heheh. So I'm acting kind of silly. I've missed the rain so much.

The air smells wet and cold. Ahhh. <3

Maybe it's an omen that today will go well. Or not. Heh.
 
 
Koji
04 September 2009 @ 09:52 pm
Title: Access Denied
Chapter: 8/??
Author: [info]evilgeniuskoji
Beta: [info]visualcomplex
Pairing: Reita/Ruki
Genre: Mystery, suspense, scifi
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: None
Summary: AU. Saiko Reality is the hottest new virtual reality simulator. With an in-game experience that questions your reality and theirs, PSC's newest product has establishd a wide branch all over Central Tokyo. Such a large corporation cannot go witout its dark secrets...and as he struggles to remember his past, Ruki finds himself ensnared in the very heart of the problem.
Comments: Thank you so much to my awesome beta.



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Koji
22 August 2009 @ 07:41 pm


Recently, [info]tokidokiko informed me that a fic of mine, The Meaning in Our Hands, reminded her of a song. It was in Cantonese, so I gave it a listen, curious. I found that what I could understand (which is basically the spoken bits) was very poignant, very beautiful, and yes, it fit the fic. So, I decided to translate a part that I thought was especially beautiful. This is my first time translating, so don't be too hard on me. ^^


Two people holding hands can endure anything. If we can feel like this, I don’t know where our emotions went. While holding hands, the feeling of sugary sweet happiness is of course wonderful, but I don’t know when I started to discover that the feeling of holding hands with you has already changed. Even though we are holding hands, I can no longer sense the care and security I used to feel (while holding hands). Watching you becoming grow farther and farther away from me, more and more closed off, really makes me worry, really makes it hard to go on. I just really want to ask, is it because you no longer love me? Because while we hold hands, I can no longer feel the tender emotions I used to. Instead, it’s like day by day we’re being pulled apart, farther and farther, until at last, in our hearts, we both know it’s time to let go (of our hands), because our love has already come to a dead end. Good bye.





The part I translated starts from 3:00 to 4:07. A very, very rough translation, and my first time translating. I know I missed some bits, but please. Read this. I think it was much more eloquent in Cantonese, but...eh. Hopefully I conveyed something to you.
 
 
Koji
19 August 2009 @ 12:22 am
Something Beautiful

They had something beautiful, but they kept breaking it, crushing it underfoot and grinding it into the asphalt like an old cigarette butt. They threw around words like daggers, stabbing and scratching and hurting each other because he could never let go of that doubt that the happiness they found was real. Something was always lurking around the corner, and it was because of that that everything always came crashing down.

Too many times he reached for his jacket, to leave, to go, to never come back because it hurt too much to wait for the day when he was left alone in that house. Surely it would hurt less if he left first.

“I shouldn’t have said anything on that damn plane ride,” Toshiro said, and Rune’s heart stopped because then it hurt to breathe, it hurt to think, of that future where the possibility never was, never happened. A future where there was no ‘we’ just ‘you’ and ‘I’.

Because happiness was so fleeting, love too often an inauthentic fake that shattered so easily under the pressure and strain of society and emotion, he never really thought they would stop hurting so easily, never really thought that they wouldn’t break again. Always harboring that doubt, the one that always led them back to this scene where they were held together once again by a single thread and one or the other wanted to leave just to make it hurt less.

His fingers were tight on the jacket. “Was it worth it?”

“I love you. Isn’t that enough? If you still want to leave, I won’t stop you.”

His throat closed up and he wanted so badly to be certain that it would hurt more to be away from him than to be with him but it never was, never would be. That thread was stronger than silk and less brittle than iron and he always found himself crushed against Toshiro’s chest, their tears and breaths intermingling between relieved kisses and hands searching for comfort and reassurance.

Only for them to hurt even more when the whole thing happened again.

But each time they put the pieces back together, they were held up by crystalline tears and broken heartstrings, to become something that was more breathtaking than before, more precious. The tears washed away the dirt and dust of distrust, to become something shining and clean. They’d break it again, but if they put it together, a little patience, love, maybe they could rekindle what they had again, because what they had was something beautiful.


This is the result of a rather heartwrenching RP between me and PK last night, for our respective muses Rune and Toshiro. They were having issues and I wrote this because the pain was so good it made me cry. God, I'm such a masochist.
 
 
Koji
01 August 2009 @ 02:08 am
Title: Access Denied
Chapter: 7/??
Author: [info]evilgeniuskoji
Pairing: Reita/Ruki
Genre: Mystery, suspense, scifi
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: None
Summary: AU. Saiko Reality is the hottest new virtual reality simulator. With an in-game experience that questions your reality and theirs, PSC's newest product has establishd a wide branch all over Central Tokyo. Such a large corporation cannot go witout its dark secrets...and as he struggles to remember his past, Ruki finds himself ensnared in the very heart of the problem.
Comments: My god, it's been almost two months. ><;; I am so sorry. I had this ready nearly a month ago, but it went through a tough editing process...and wow, seven chapters already, hopefully I can wrap this up soon! I hope I still have readers, man...



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Koji
24 July 2009 @ 10:44 pm
Title: It Rains Red
Fandom: Dogs: Bullets&Carnage
Pairing: Heine/ Badou
Rating: PG-13
Summary: If he stands in the rain long enough, the blood will wash away. With sleep comes the nightmares and stained hands, so tonight he won't sleep.
Notes: First time I've written for Dogs, just got into the fandom. A fun pairing, I wonder how I did? It's been so long since I've written fanfiction for manga. For
[info]blackmoralistxx.


Gunsmoker, Stray Dog )

 
 
Koji
17 July 2009 @ 04:00 am
I just pulled an all night for no reason whatsoever, even though I must be up at hte ungodly hour of four. But I couldn't sleep. WHY. D;
 
 
Koji
17 July 2009 @ 01:17 am
Title: The Meaning in Our Hands
Chapter: 1/1
Author: [info]evilgeniuskoji
Pairing: Reita/Ruki
Theme: Last train ride home [info]15memories
Genre: Angst, romance, general
Rating: PG
Warning: None
Summary: Don't let go till we get home. Let's just get on a train and go.
Comments: To tide you over till I get the next chapter up.

The silence swallowed him, and he let it. )

 
 
Koji
14 July 2009 @ 11:29 pm

Happy Bastille Day! Today the French celebrate the event that sparked the French revolution. In honor of our Francophone friends, what is your favorite French thing? Bonus points for answers en français.


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C'est la nourriture, mais oui. J'aime la nourriture.

...Je dois parler en francais plus du temps c'ete.
 
 
Koji
04 July 2009 @ 07:47 am
Title: Access Denied
Chapter: 6/??
Author: [info]evilgeniuskoji
Beta: [info]visualcomplex
Pairing: Reita/Ruki
Genre: Mystery, scifi, general
Rating: PG-13
Warning: None
Summary: AU. Saiko Reality is the hottest new virtual reality simulator. With an in-game experience that questions your reality and theirs, PSC's newest product has establishd a wide branch all over Central Tokyo. Such a large corporation cannot go witout its dark secrets...and as he struggles to remember his past, Ruki finds himself ensnared in the very heart of the problem.
Comments: Oh gosh, I am SO sorry how long this took. ><;; I didn't mean to drag it out so long, but I had the hardest writer's block ever. =/ Let's see if I still have readers after this.



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Koji
27 June 2009 @ 11:54 pm
Title: Return to Sender
Chapter: 1/1
Author: [info]evilgeniuskoji
Beta: [info]visualcomplex 
Pairing: Reita/Ruki
Prompt: Lasts: last love letter, [info]15memories
Genre: Angst, romance
Rating: PG
Warning: Character death
Summary: Three years of secreted letters, up in flames. Say goodbye properly and put aside your regrets; you won't live wholly otherwise.
Comments: God, I am so late on this challenge. I hope I'm not thrown out for it. >>;; Unbeta'd since my beta seems to be busy, and the lyrics used below are Reila by the GazettE, translations from [info]gazette_lyrics. Hope it turned out alright.


Address invalid; return to sender )
 
 
Koji
26 June 2009 @ 11:24 pm

I found a site that...'rasterbates' images so that you can print them out and make them into huge posters by gluing/taping the pages together. So I tried it out, eager to have some nice Gaze-posters without paying a pinkie and a thumb for them.

Here's the result:



It looks sooo much better on camera. xD IRL, the pages kinda peel outward and you can see where they're taped together and everything. And it's definitely not perfect. But I rather like it~. It's a terrible use of ink though. >>;;

...Lol. I am so bad for thinking 'masturbator' when the program is called 'Rasterbator'.

Have a sore throat and my nose is stuffed up. This sudden heat must have made my allergies act up. >>

 
 
Koji
23 June 2009 @ 06:50 pm
I am going to diiiie.

It is so hot and I walked all the way back from teh library to home. That's an hour of 90-degree weather sun, ladies and gents.

Thank god for Fuze: Black and Green Tea. So good. -licks lips-

It's hooot. Pool party tomorrow.

Volunteered for a 4th of July parade at the library. This should rack me up some hours.
 
 
Koji
20 June 2009 @ 05:52 pm
If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.
 
 
Koji
19 June 2009 @ 09:02 pm
Just changed the header and bg of my layout. Is the background too busy? Can you guys concentrate on reading with it there? I can't figure out a different bg to use...
 
 
Koji
17 June 2009 @ 01:33 pm

o___o I can't believe I won that AU fanfic contest. I thought [info]bi_bye or [info]bubblexxtea would've won for sure! Most I expected was 2nd place.

Thanks to everyone who voted for me. ^^

I wonder what story I should request banners for other than Access Denied~.
 
 
Koji
16 June 2009 @ 12:29 pm
Red Cross, you suck for not telling me what blood type I am even after you stuck me multiple times with that damn needle cause you couldn't get enough blood out of me.

Fail.
 
 
 
 

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